Particularly

Tossing, turning, churning

Sea gray, white cap

Clouds black, air bone chilling.

It came on in a snap

Fan the flame, encourage the heat

Come on fire, I am frozen.

My fingers, my toes, even my seat.

Curl up small, wrap blanket around tight

Planted to this spot I am for the night

Fire crackles, burning fully hot

I think, I wonder

even now, as the room turns bright from lightening

and the sky shakes with thunder.

How to shut out the storm of the heart;

layers deep, way down under.

In a small voice I whisper, "Dear God

take my pain, my burden, my shame."

In an instant, like the fire in the fireplace,

something ignites in my heart.

All aglow and all aflame, peace bursts

to life, comes over me in overwhelming 

warmth. I fan it, encourage it to grow.

I speak words of thankfulness, gratefulness,

making an effort to call this new found joy by name.

Walking hand in hand with Jesus on this winding, twisting road.

Once again He held me close, said He would never ever leave

and reminded me I didn't need to look back. That He did the work

and I would never be the same.

In safety, security, provision and peace we walk hand in hand.

It's an adjustment, but I begin to walk more confidently; alone no more. On solid rock we take each step, no more fear, no more sinking sand.

The journey we take is not always smooth or trouble free. Truth is, it will never be.

We get closer all the time to the dreams He has fashioned just for me.

Fulfilled, lived out, purpose full. Beyond my abilities, courage, and strength, the impossible came to life, first in my heart, then in my head, finally a 3 dimensional reality. Nothing can stand above the loving hand of God. 
With care, attention to detail, He carves out a niche. 

At His hand, there will be no oops or glitch. He takes the broken, worn down and worn out, embittered and shattered, making each life whole and makes it brand new.

This isn't a game, a lie, or a beautiful dream for an exclusive chosen few. 
It's a free gift and absolute truth.

He has done it particularly for me, and particularly 
He waits for you.